the weekend wasnt that great. i didnt do much b/c i think im in a depression lol. shannon is in florida and i miss her so much but shes comin back tomorrow .

ok when i got back from texas my dad offered me a job at his work where all i would have to do is sign a bunch of stuff and record some stuff [some guys drop off some dirt and leave to get some more and bring it back all day]. well i told my dad i wuld do it b/c its 7 bucks an hour and i culd use this money b/c me and rat have decided to start skatin again. my dad works like 8-10 hours a day. so i could get seventy bucks a day. well my dad woke me up today at 6:22 and i was kinda tired. i got ready and then we left got there and the guy tht im supposed to sign the stuff for culdnt come today b/c the dirt was to wet so they culdnt deliver. i was PISSED. my dad chews the guy out which made me feel a little better then he asked juan [co-worker] to take me home and he did. i got to ride in his lifted ford f-250. it was nice! i want the car i get to be lifted like his. it was kinda uncomfortable tho b/c i dont rly kno the guy all that well and he has XM radio and he turns it to this comedy thing where this girl is talkin about 'men. she was talkin about marriages and how married ppl have sex and how kids ask each other about it and then gay men havin sex and ladies havin sex together. i was like ok but it was kinda funny but uncomfortable. so i got back home at like 11:30. sat around until 3 then i decided to mow the grass b/c its rly thick and i hadnt mowed since i left. well it wuldnt start at first and i thought it was the oil. SOMEHOW it came on and i got it goin. i got like a lil over half the yard done now b/c it started rainin. well shannon gets back tomorrow so things will be a lil more excitin.

later biiitchesssss

alrite....IM BLACK...i mean back haha. well ya im back from texas. did yall miss me? o ok \

well texas wasnt rly that great. the only reason i go there is to visit my grandparents and my birth mother and to go out on the lake b/c my parents live on lake medina. well i got to see plenty of my g-parents and my mom. the boat....well i think i broke it lol. we got to go out on it a few times and i tried wakeboardin. it was fun although it took me like 7 tries to get up b/c the handle kept burnin my hand. but i eventually got it. then i also skiied and got to tube for the first time too. that was alrite but it gets borin just layin there lol. but i was drivin the boat b/c kathy [my birth mother] doesn like to drive it b/c she thinks she mite break it sooooo...i did her a favor by breakin it for her lol. i dont rly know wuts wrong but i do kno that it wont go into reverse but u dont rly need that do u? i also played alot of monopoly with my real brother and my black cousin lol. i never knew i had a black cousin but thats sweet. i won most of the time b/c they can hardly count money. i swam alot in my g-parents pool. i helped my grandpa clean out the gutters which sucked b/c i thought i was goin to get bit by a snake b/c there all over that place. well needless to say i didnt. lets see i also went to a huge flea market. this placedd was packed with wetbacks [mexicans] lol. everything was like a dollar tho cuz it looked like everything was stolen. i didnt buy anything down there.

meanwhile...shannon was at lookup mountain with her church and she realized some stuff that im tryin to change about myself. i hadnt talked to her for like 6 days b/c she didnt have service up there. i missed her alot. sometimes i wuld just call her cell to hear her voice. then she called me the day she got back and we talked about God. honestly...ive never rly believed in him or had faith in him, and shannon was lookin for someone who did after she went up there. she wrote me in her 'composition book' some of her thoughts and feelings about us and God. and she wrote wut she looks fo in a guy. after she told me her list...i was like ok so how many of those things am i. and honestly i didnt apply to most of them. shes lookin for someone who believes in God and has a good relationship with him and other things to but that was the main thing. i am not a religious person at all. ive been to church a few times with her but ive never actually got anything from it b/c i guess ive never rly had God close to me. so the rest of the trip i tried talkin to him and askin for things and for him to come in my life. then i wasnt sure if it wuld happen b/c i honestly didnt rly kno i was talkin to him, but i tried to change...

we left wednesday at 1 oclock and didnt get back until 8 oclock thursday nite. so it was a 17 hr drive lol. it sucked and it was rly boring. i read the new harry potter book and watched some movies. when i got back i asked for shan to come over b/c she was leavin the next day for florida to go and see her sick grandfather. i hope that everything works out for her and her grandfather. well she came over around 9 and stayed until 1015 b/c her mom wanted her home early. the moment i saw her car pull up i culdnt stop smilin and i just wanted to hold on to her the whole time and not let go. well thats kinda wut happened lol. we were huggin each other pretty much the whole nite. we culdnt let go of each otehr. but then she told me that all of her friends thought she was goin to be breakin up with me tonite . i was like wut? i was liek why? and she sed b/c of the things she found out that she wanted from lookup but she didnt break up with me b/c she missed me but i felt kinda unwanted at the moment. i was just so shocked that she actually thought of breakin up with me that nite. i mean she came to my house knowing that she mite be breakin up with me. i was heartbroken when she told me </3. i went inside and called her later to talk to her about it. we worked things out and were still together.

yesterday shan left and i was still to find some answers about God. well i talked to an old friend lol and she helped me ALOT. she gave me alot of answers that no one else has given me and im extremely thankful for that. im still kinda on the edge about the whole diving into religion and faith so quick b/c im sure there are still alot of answers that idk but i am goin to find soem answers. well thank u for that person and u kno who u are

well today my parents were supposed to go to a wedding but they didnt go b/c my mom wanted to sleep in. she can be ignorant at times but idc i still love my family. yall want to kno who else i love.....well her intials are....skt

oh ya i almost forgot...the nite b4 we left kathy was goin home at like 1130 at nite and she called my g-parents house and i thought it was shan so i answered but i wasnt sure why she wuld be callin then but i answered anyways. she called and told me that there was A LADY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!!! i was like oh man b/c me and my cousin were watchin the texas chainsaw massacre and they had just picked the girl up in the beginning who was walkin int he middle of the road. so i told my mom and we called the police and drove to meet kathy. the sheriff and paramedics beat us there b/c my aunt kathy was drivin liek 25 mph in a 40 mph road. oh ya the road is like in the middle of no where basically so it made it more scary. but we got there and the lady crashed her car and crawled out thru the back seat. well wut happened wass that she was rly intoxicated lol. so now kathy has to go to court and testify so shuld be cool.

well im out...later

today is mine and shannons 9 month anniversary!!! today were goin to go out to eat and go watch the laser show at stone mountain. but today is also a sad day b/c im leavin for texas tonite at midnight or in the mornin tomorrow. so ill be gone for 12 days and shannon mite be gone when i get back. idk i think ill have fun out there but i dont want to not see my baby for so long lol. ill miss her and all of yall so much....

happy b-day sar!

have a good summer...

sorry i havent been updating in awhile but things have been pretty busy. im just goin to write about today....

lets see today i woke up at 9 oclock. i normally wake up at 10 b/c i have to get ready for summer school. well today i woke up at 9 b/c there was this guy across the street using a jack hammer to dig up around the sewer. well it woke me up and i was pretty pissed b/c i was dreamin about shannon . but i let mikey out and he chased them lol. but he came back and i was like sry guys....in the back of my mind i was laughin tho. then i took a shower and played a game of nba inside drive. then went to school. class was kinda boring. the first hour and a half we went to the library and i already had my project done b/c im tryin to pass this time lol so i just sat around. then we all went back to the classroom and finished watchin THE DAY AFTER. its pretty stupid but it kinda made u think about wut wuld happen if we ever wanted to bomb each other with nukes. well if it is like the movie then i wuldnt want that to happen. then we finished our review packet for thursday b/c thats the day of our finals [LAST DAY!!!!]. then i left and shannon picked me up . she happens to be legal now so my parents let me ride with her. i was so happy. she made me feel so excited idk why tho lol. then we went to chik fil a and then we went to discover mills. we just walked around but i helped her buy these sweet jeans for her. they were nice and tight . then we started headin for the car b/c it was pouring. i mean we got soaked running to the car. then we went home about 20 mph the whole way lol. i tried to just talk her thru it and keep her mind of all the rain b/c she was so scared. then she came over and changed into her jeans and then left b.c she culdnt come to dinner with us . my dad got home as i was walkin her to her car...no more rain... then she left and then we went to sonnys barbaque. it was fun tho. i took some cards nick left her sunday and played some pok with them lol. i kicked some ass. we ate ...left... and came back home. i got home and finished my project. thats about it...

im goin to texas on saturday . i wont be able to see shannon for 12 days just about.   friday is mine and shannons 9 month anniversary. WOAH! 9 months is a long time. i cant believe its been 9 months but im so glad that its been with her. i love u shannon kate twomey!

yesterday i went over to shannons and basically just chilled all day and did all the usual things we do. shes goin to be able to drive me soon [monday] so will be partying it up just about everyday then once we get the parents out of the pic. but ya yesterday i went over there then eric and rat met up with us there and we played poker [i lost] and basketball. im sure all of yall r wondering wut happened with us tho....

ok well last nite she called him or he called her and they talked about it. she told him everything and then he was like ok....im goin to put this in a way u can understand shannon [metaphor]..."im goin to be goin on a vacation and taken my hawaiian shirt and flip flops and just goin for a lil vacation. ill have my phone with me and i will be willing to recieve text messages but it mite take me awhile to respond to them. one day, idk when tho, i mite come back and give u a call"... so to put it in a way for everyone else to understand is that there goin to be taken time apart. daniel/ her kind of are just goin to go there seperate ways and do there own things [more like daniel is]. i sort of figured it wuld be like that. i mean ive sed this alot i may not kno him but i kno guys. honestly im happy with them taken time apart b/c everyone knos that i pretty much hate the guy but in the same time im upset that shan isnt taken it so good. she lost like one of her best friends. i kno he meant alot to her and i kno wut its like to lose one of ur good friends and its one of the worst feelings in the world. i hate that she has to go thru it but i think all i can do with it is just make her happy and give her space when she needs it and comfort her. i feel bad but in the same time im happy that its over for now....

today school started back up again lol. summer school isnt rly that bad. i mean u do have to go there and sit in a classroom for 3 hours and listen to this teacher ramble on about boring shit but the tests are easy, everyone in the class is as dumb as u b/c everyone there has failed. but its still boring. i dont wan tto go back. next summer here is wut i want to do....wake up at 11, call shannon and see wut shes doin that day, get in my car and drive [i shuld have my liscence by then], and do w/e the hell i feel like with all of my friends. anyone want to join me? leave a comment and will make plans for next summer lol....

later "nukka"[?]